Hindsight is a Bitch

I've realized that I have some issues. One of which is I bottle things up. Ugh, I just feel like such a mess lately.

Today I took my niece to the zoo with my Mom. When we were leaving neither of us could figure out how to collapse the stroller. My Mom decides to call my sister-in-law using my cell but accidentally dials the wrong number. She dialed my previously mentioned friend that likes to be a jerk and blow off all her friend. The reason her number was dialed was because she shares the same name as my sister-in-law. My mom passes the phone to me(evidentially she had a temporarily lapse in listening to directions) and I realize who it is and told her sorry wrong number and hung up. Afterwards I was incredibly mad and really surprised by my reaction. I had no idea talking to her, even for a minute, would upset me so much.

I realize that I am still incredibly angry at her for her actions of the past several months, despite how much I try to convince myself otherwise. It is just so frustrating and I try not to talk about it anymore, but obviously it has been festering for some time now. I was just sick of bitching about to my friends, I don't want to be that person. God, why does it still bother me so much?

The two of us use to be really good friends. We were even roommates for a year and became even better friends because of it. I don't know, that is not completely true. Whenever I look back at our friendship it becomes painfully clear that she wasn't that good of a friend. I mean, does a good friend ruin your birthday or completely ignore you when you're having a really shitty day? No, they don't. She's the one who is suppose to cheer you up, not make it worse. I really need to resolve this issue, but I know nothing good will come of it. She is impossible to talk to when you try to discuss something that she doesn't want to. It makes it especially harder since she sees absolutely nothing wrong with the situation. If only it could have been fixed before it became such a mess.

Oh, I almost forgot. That picture is from Yahoo and hopefully will make you giggle after reading this pity party I'm having for myself.

One last thing. I will be moving my blog to http://jo22.blogspot.com just to make things a bit easier in case I want to change the name of my blog or anything. This won't happen until a few days.